Life- Faking It Till You Make It

“I’m out here living my best life, being healthy, meditating, radiating positivity, making loads of cash and being in the best relationship with my partner and myself”

– My instagram profile

I have always been pretty fond of the saying, “fake it ‘til you make it”, I’ve always trusted that if I get myself into a situation where there is a step up to be made, I know that I can get through it and conquer it. The more step-ups you make, the easier it should become. You get used to being uncomfortable and then being uncomfortable becomes comfortable– in theory.

I’m not sure if it’s because I’m getting older or because the steps I am choosing are ridiculously high, but I’m really not so great at faking it anymore– with anything and I’m slowly realising that the saying “fake it ‘til you make it” is turning into “fuck it”.

Can’t squeeze my ass into those jeans? Fuck it.

Not getting along with those friends? Fuck it.

Cake not looking like the photo? Fuck it. (obviously eat it anyway…)

At a party that you don’t want to be at where you’re supposed to look good and smile? Fuck it.

I am tired of all of it and I am tired of pretending that those little likable squares on my feed mean anything.